Indeed!

I had panicked. It is not a question I am sure to answer truthfully, as in said fit of panic, I may have acted a bit more irrationally than usual. Perhaps I wanted to assist in some way in order to possibly prevent the untimely demise Larry had so worried me about. Perhaps I wanted to simply have a chance to speak with you for the last time. I could not be certain at the time, neither am I entirely certain now.